Hey Alex, I was wondering what you do when you have lyrics in your head but you can't find the right tune to fit it? I've been working on a few songs but one just doesn't want to speak out, you know? Stay Golden.
I have a little folder of lyrics that have no sound, just odd lines here and there, but usually I find that if they don’t immediately find a home, they never do. Songs tend to form complete and all at once, so when I abandon a song after the first chorus or first verse, it tends never to get made.
same with me. Its “lost all hope in that song” pile. :P
So I’m currently rewriting my book and I got to a bit about being ‘famous on the internet’, which I was writing about because I got recognised a few times when I visited Hammersmith tube station* and thought it’d be an interesting digression.
The section starts with this, which I’ve decided is…
I just learned some history haha. I even googled it. interesting I never saw the Americans version of it. Guess my no-body I knew wanted it haha.
All time..Just from thinking of memories of what I don’t have, or moments that were sad to me…things I miss SO much..of the person I love..</3
I cant take this feeling anymore. I cant take another heartbreak. I cant handle falling in love with high hopes and wishes and a feeling he is the one I can see being with the rest of my life, just for it all to get shattered into nothing..
I cant take the feeling afterward that he once liked me, once saw me as a for sure girlfriend; someone to try and grow a future together.
It’s a dream to want a guy to want me for me and ONLY have eyes for me and not an ex that comes back like the plague or a savior. But that’s only a dream right? it’s just a fairytale to me. I may be special, but its never enough, or there is just a girl one step higher than me.
And it pains me for me to know that we could have been so much together. That we would have gone the distance. To know that we didn’t end on even the slightest bad note; that you still liked me fully and not a single less than you ever did…
I really cant take it.
You’ve made me a better person.
You made me the happiest person.
I know I was…that’s what makes it hard. It makes it hard to let go, for I will always love what you made me.